This essay is a part of BA exam in Dance. My task is to set a research question withinthe field of dance as an artistic field and discuss the question and the process of the research.Due to my tendency of dwelling in existential questions such as why are people so vicioustowards each other and what is the meaning of life, I have come to a point in the research,where I have been seeking ways and methods which could turn my personal anger, sadnessand frustration into an artistic product. In this essay, I aim to discuss the process of how myresearch turned into a performance called I don´t have a title anymore, and how the topics Ihave been working with produced certain material for the piece.In this project, I explore my participation in hip hop culture and dance performance. Iam using rap music and performance art as mediums to reflect upon my place in the world.Interest for this is motivated by my history with both art forms and the struggle of finding lifemeaning full. By understanding the context in which I am placed at I hope to find a momentof piece with the surrounding world. The project is an artistic proposal and space for selfreflection. I will first outline the issues producing my frustration and then go into discussingthe performance I made. My aim is not to give political advice or solutions to the problems athand but instead the project is about dealing with what is there, what is present in the momentI work with this project. Because of including everything that has been present to me at thetime of the project, I end up into emotional and messy thoughts since reflecting upon thecontext I exist within is ongoing process for me. This text is thinking in writing, it ischoreographing words by repeating, explaining, going around in circles and ending up into7417 words of final product. This project is yet another happening in life, a step towardsfreedom that I believe does not exist. This project is another point on to do list before I havethe chance to go to Bali and write an album full of rap music airing out my personal angertowards the world.The main question of this project is how to work with rap music in the dance andperformance context? The issues rising from this combination of interests are related to race,gender and inequality. Thinking about race and gender has caused me frustration anddepression. The state of existential crisis has been the fuel of this project. While I have beenbusy with seeing problematics of race and problematics of gender around me, unfortunately,very fast I get thoroughly and utterly sad and the hope towards humankind is low. It seems to Vanessa Virta4me that the world is such a bad place and my life has so little meaning that I might as wellstop living. From the bottom of this hole I find the other main question in this process, whichis, how to use frustration, sadness and anger as material and/or guidance in artistic work? Ihave chosen to call this essay Capitalising Frustration since I am desperately trying to turnmy frustration into a product that I am expected to produce.You are welcome to take part in the document though the project can´t be fullyexperienced through this document but instead it needs to be read together with the practicalpart of the project. Dear reader, I encourage you to bear with me until till the end of the text,it is quite important to read the whole essay in case you start.