To struggle in the uncomfortable.

How to find paths from the views / ideas / statements / thoughts to be shaped into artistic expression? How do I proceed to work actively with the ideas from the starting point, while the work continuously find itself in a process and develop into a area of action?

How to find a subject/the subject or questions/the questions that I think I'm searching for. Subjects that are hard to define, point out. Working with the unknown. crossing the limits. To stay in the challenge when I want to leave. To stay and take the chance to understand the feeling of resistance. To become aware about myself and my routines, my prejudices, lack of connection with myself. My own ego that is working with self-fulfilment and in need of confirmation, versus the ego in shape of relieving the conscience through a conclusion of something bigger than the own ego.