Err on the side of transparency , the 4th of the 8th hour is a performance as well as a memorial, a funeral and a tribute to youth, dreams of identities, destruction and lipsticks. It’s about remembering and longing through collapsed time loops and phases, working with and creating through erotics, the emotional body and the memories as well as the traumas our bodies contain. The performers, Riikka Lyra, Malla Aaltonen, Maya Giraudet and Tovalisa Delin, simply perform themselves but trigger different states within them through specific practices and scores. The piece takes form as a youth movie, working with clear images, visions and dreams through frontality. This essay questions where these images, visions and dreams sit in your body and explores the possibility of detaching the mind when creating, insisting on expanding the term knowledge. It also works through questions of synchronicity through friendship and deep listening, how far worlds can radiate and merge as well as how vibrations and sound trigger our emotional bodies. How we can create through trusting resonance and synchronicity. It also situates the question of who we are performing here - ourselves, a past or a third, exploring if it is possible to reenact lived experiences on stage. The piece explores the meeting between two contradictory worlds, taking a double life into one room - as a revolt as well as out of necessity. What is darkness, what is light, what is destruction, what is joy? How to glitch normativity apart through subtle horror? The acknowledging, embracing and revolting towards normativity, especially hyperfemininity, is situated in this work - exploring different ways of handle this life as youth and to discharge the terms destructiveness and darkness. The essay works from ideas around erotics and pleasure activism - how to create from and through pleasure and emotions while treating the piece in the not-knowing as a living entity. This essay talks about control while leaving it. 3030.